Monday, July 29, 2013

Day 1 of 84--Thoughts, Food, and Exercise

Each day is an opportunity to start thinking positive and moving on to the positive things in life.  I have tried every diet on the planet, read hundreds of diet books, magazine articles, joined gyms, etc.  The bottom line is that I am still fat.  As much as I wanted a diet pill to work and to make me feel better I did not have that luck.  Instead I sit at the same horrifying weight that I did a few weeks after giving birth to my fourth child.  I am thankful for my gorgeous little one but some days I am still depressed that I have let myself get so fat and go so far from when I want to be.

Last week I started a new thing with my diet.  I eat when I am hungry and I eat what I am hungry for.  When you are allowing yourself to have anything that you want, I have found out that I don't want as many bad for me things.  I eat within reason and I am working out hard.  I have several different things that I do to work out.  This is hard for me.  I'd honestly rather just give up eating than have to work out hard and get my ass up and go to the gym.  Let's face it, no one really enjoys working out.  They enjoy the benefits that you get from working out but not working out itself.

I have lots of fitness goals but the main one is just to fit into my favorite pair of jeans and right now I am far from being able to do so.  I know that I am fat.  Do I like being fat?  No.  The problem is that at the weight that I am now things are difficult to do.  It is hard to be able to put myself out there, to run or to attempt to work out.  There are fat rolls in the way and that makes it feel impossible from time to time.

However I am now getting to the point where I can feel myself being motivated.  One week of working out and listening to my body about foods and I lost 7 lbs.  I started my journey at 257 lbs.  I know that the number is disgusting.   I hate myself for ever having crossed the 200 lb threshold but the thing is that I have four amazing children and one amazing husband that deserve so much more from me.  For them I have started this journey.  I am now at 250 lbs.  Am I proud of that?  No but do I feel that I can do better and reach and meet my goals in life, yes.  My goal is to weigh between 145-160.  I won't know my goal until I get there and I know based on past losses after having a child that my weight might be different than what it was before while I can still fit into the same clothes. 

I guess you might want to know what I am eating.  Today I had two eggo buttermilk waffles for breakfast.  That is what sounded good to me so that is what I ate.  I then had some yogurt and granola for lunch, again it was what sounded good and what I wanted to eat.  For supper I had a piece of baked blackened tilapia, some parmesan roasted potatoes, sautéed green beans, and a slaw that was made from fennel and cabbage with a homemade balsamic, olive oil and herb dressing and a bit of goat cheese.  It was all what sounded good to me.  

For workouts here is what I did today.  :)  I did day 1 of a free training plan that I found online and I also did my personal crunches challenge of 100 crunches and ran 1 mile.  :)  It feels good to work out and to have my body feel good after working out.  Running is very hard for me.  It is something that I have never ever been able to do but each day that I run I feel a bit stronger, go a bit faster, and end up feeling a bit better when it is all over.  This is the workout that I do and this is what I am working hard to accomplish. 

My personal goal is to be accountable and to keep records of working out, my food intake and everything else for 12 weeks.  It is not that much time.  It is something that I can do.  I am devoting these 84 days of my life to getting into the best physical shape possible and starting a new lifestyle that is going to stick with me for years to come.  The reason that my posts will have the numbered style of writing is because I want to know how far I have come in my 84 day journey and how far I have left to go.  I want a reminder that if I mess up I am wasting all of those days that have come before more and I want something that is going to personally help motivate me to do better. I have an odd goal of wearing a cute and maybe just a little bit sexy Halloween costume this year, something that will make the hubby just a little bit more attracted to me than he was before and something that will make me feel great about myself.

Here is my journey, my story and I hope one that will inspire you and help you to make the journey your own.  Lots of love and I really look forward to hearing from you all over the next 84 days to hear about your own journeys and to hear about how things are going for you.  I have a lot of weight to lose and I do not think that I will have it all off in the next 12 weeks but I do think that I should be able to be much closer to my goal and hopefully wearing some of my old clothes that I have not been able to wear in quite some time.

On a side note, here is a link to the 12 week program that I found free online.  I am not following the diet guidelines as I want to continue going with my eating when I am hungry thing as it seems to be working out so well for me now.  However this is the strength training routine that I will be doing.

This week the focus is on 3 sets of 12 repetitions of each exercise.  Today's exercises were wide pushups (can be on knees if needed and it was needed for me to do them on my knees), dumbbell bench press, flat bench cable flyes, narrow push ups, standing dumbbell tricep extension, and tricep pushdowns.  It was not that hard to accomplish, I am sure that this was in part b/c of the kettlebell classes that I have been taking but I feel great and these exercises felt good overall.  I did them all.  Those push ups, even on my knees, sucked and were awful.

I did my personal best mile in 14:28!!  My last mile was in 17:46 so I shaved nearly 3 minutes off of the time!

If you can't get to a gym I will leave you with my favorite at home workout that I have ever found.  I love that your heart rate gets up there and that you sweat a lot with this one but that overall it is super easy.  Here goes!!  Enjoy this one if you can not get out....personally I did not do this one today but will probably be doing it later in the week while we are on vacation.  1.  cross lunge butt kick x 20 each side, 2.  single t squat x 20 each side (hold the last one for 20 sec--on each side), 3.  hockey squat jumps x 16, 4.  narrow squat hold for 40 seconds, 5.  lunge kicks x 20 each side, 6. crunches x 100, 7.  heels up and down x 20, 8. stretch.  The more advanced you are the more times that you can quickly run through this routine.  Add in some chair dips, additional crunches, and some push ups and you are working nearly all of the muscles in your body with ease and without any equipment at all making this the perfect choice for you when you are traveling or on the go.

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